When you drop a glass or a plate, a window shatters, a picture falls, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent.
You would think that for something so important, it would make the loudest noise in the whole world.
But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
You cry and you cry, beg and pray, but it doesn’t help and you know you have to let go and try to move on, your head is screaming at you to get over it, but your heart cries out for him and won’t let you forget.
“I hate forcing myself to let go of a person that I want in my life, I know I have to let go yet I feel empty whenever I try to.
So now I ask, is emptiness better than pain?”
Maybe i’d rather not let go and move on, maybe i’d rather hold on to this hurt I feel than to be out there in the world meeting all the people who do not even come close to who he was, maybe it’s not worth the disappointment. You can call me a coward for thinking this, but I think it’s dangerous to let go for I might love him more fiercely when I step back and realize there’s nobody out there quite like him.
My dad once quoted me this and I’ve come to know the true meaning.
To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent of looking down at the bottom. You don’t care if it’s going to hurt like hell when you hit the bottom. All you care about is that for just that short period of time, you felt like you could fly.
It’s so true, because no matter how painful life is right now, what we had, our special memories still mean more to me than anything and if I have to feel this pain forever then I know that I had for a short time, the best there possibly is and even throughout the heart break I know that it was worth all this pain.