Got to say I have been through some pretty bad times in my life as I’m sure we all have, but the last two months have been a living hell.
I’ve been judged on every level called many hurtful things and had to prove myself on levels that I should never had to of done.
And trust me I would not have done that for anyone else, and what hurts more is that no matter what I do, no matter what I prove, it is never good enough. That hurts like a million blades being stabbed into my heart.
And still I’m willing to take more, just to prove to him I never lied.
Now if this is love, Jesus never fall in love.
I swear that it’s the worst feeling in the world and I’m so angry with myself for letting myself fall in love, believing him when he promised to never hurt me or to never break my heart.
So why am I still here loving and missing him ?