So when is it time to give up on the person you love? when they make it clear as day they just don’t give a damn and make you question if he did ever care, because if he did ever love me, he wouldn’t give up just like this.
I don’t want to give up because he is my world. But the silence, coldness and lack of heart is killing me ( not slowly but at a speeding rate that I can’t explain.)
I’ve never felt such love and pain at the same time, it’s broken me beyond words. How can I ever recover from this. How can I get over him, when I know we are meant to be.
I can feel it deep within my soul and my bones. He said he felt that to. So why isn’t he fighting, we belong together
I’m asked why I don’t get angry or hate?
Human beings are the only creatures who have the choice to either live within our nature or to not to. What I mean by that is actually kind of simple.
We are the only creatures who will do things that go against our happiness and lively hood. We’ll cause disharmony within the world with our actions. Say hurtful things to others when we know it does no good. We choose to hate people with all our hearts when in the end the only person receiving harm is our selves.
If you are sitting in a room and just glaring at someone you hate, what does that do? They seem to be minding their own business, having a good time, and hating them is making you unhappy.
So why do we do that?
To me, Love is the source of life, isn’t a world full of love and light, better than letting hate and anger take over.
Wouldn’t the world be so much nicer, if everyone opened their hearts a little more.
I know I’m a fine one to talk as I try to shut out love, but the truth in the matter is, my life was perfect when he loved me, nothing matched those few years.
But I’m still wise enough to see that hate gets you no where, so I don’t allow myself to get angry, or hate because I know I just can’t find it within me to hate him.
Love is kinder and stronger.
Love is life.
Today I was massaging a lady, who was so highly stung, her back was full of knots, it was kinda scary at the amount of tension she had in her upper back.
As I gently loosened the tension, trying hard to not try to comfort her in someway, by asking her if she needed a listening ear. My heart went out to her and I knew deep down, that if I was there having a message I would be as riddled with tension as she was.
Finally she relaxed into the massage and fall asleep. A glow warmed me as I realised I had helped her find a little peace, even if only for an hour or so.
When she came round a good hour later, she was so grateful.
I gave her a cd of music the I have made for my customers as a small thank you for their business and to help with everyday stress of life. It’s just a small token, that hopefully will help some people. I’m sure most go in the bin but that doesn’t matter, if it helps one person, then it is worth it.
In such a fast paced society, it is very easy to lose sight of who you are and how your mind works. From a young age, we are taught to think a certain way and act a certain way to the point that we lose ourselves amongst the crowd. Sometimes, it helps to take a break and rediscover parts of yourself.
With the right music, it has the magical ability to heal and calm the soul and listening to music while completing a task can reap benefits beyond belief. I have always been a strong believer in this, and have blogged many times about the benefits of it.
Today proved to me how powerful it really is.
I just hope she listens to it once in a while and I can help her de stress just a little.