Today has been hard, Marly-Kate and I woke with stinking colds and really nasty chests. High temps, feeling more than like death warmed up. We haven’t moved far from the sofa, phone near by for that all important call, which came as promised.

Was a massive kick in the teeth and emotions got the better of me but I’m trying to keep my positive thoughts and trying hard to stay on top.

But today, has been hard, it brought back memories I don’t want to visit until I have to.
I suck at shutting out my emotions more so today, I guess being sick and looking after a really poorly little girl, has got the better of me. On top of that I knew today would be one of tears.
But I know it’s a step forward to letting my baby boy rest.
I have to see it as a positive even though it will bring more heartache and pain, I will win this battle though.

Sitting doing nothing has made my mind roar, I’ve thought too much, I’ve judged myself, blaming myself for trusting people, loving to much and allowing myself to feel.

It not healthy to think the way I have been and I know I have to let in the light.
Positive thinking beats this any day.

What I’m trying to say, without beating around the bush.
Don’t look at the world and see all it’s flaws. Be the change you want to see in the world.

Let your soul and heart cry out to you and be a better person, freeing your mind of anger and letting the love, goodness in.

Have a good night guys.