Wearing my heart……

imageTears over flow and get to a point they turn to anger.
My inner voice screams at you “get out of my head, please get out of my head” why are you in there when you have made it god damn clear that you don’t give a damn about me.

As soon as I have thought those thoughts , anger then turns to tears very quickly and I then get so angry at myself for thinking such thoughts.
I hate myself intensely and I am disappointed at myself and discussed with my thoughts, its no wonder you don’t love me. Why would you? I’m just a plain Jane and all I have to give is my love, which you already own.

How can I get angry with you when I love you so much, so so much.
But baby it doesn’t stay with me for long because I know you’re the most amazing person I have ever met and my love for you only grows.
I know that falling in love with my best friend could be a blessing and a curse. On one hand, you know me better than anyone does in this world. We’ve been through it all together, (the good, the bad, the ugly), and you’ve always stood by my side. I have more fun sitting around with you and doing nothing productive, than I do with anyone else. You’re my right wing man and I love you. Your my best friend.
It hurts so much not to have you by my side and I want you there, I want you there so badly.
I don’t want life without you. Your all I want.
Your the only person that makes me happy. Your the missing piece of me and I’m lost so lost without you.
You truly have shown me that there are decent people in the world.
You are funny, kind, and you listen to me when no-one else would.
And when you use to tell me that I am beautiful, it mad my soul jump alive with a life it has never lived before. I don’t think you know how much all those comments meant to me, but that’s just you.
Your words and the meaning behind them touched me deep within my soul and for the first time in my life I knew words could have a meaning, a meaning that was linked to the heart.
For the first time ever I felt loved, loved differently to any other. It was something so beautiful and words can not begin to explain what I mean, but I know that once you meant every word you said to me and when you told me you loved me, the look in your eyes gave it away before you even began to speak.
I will never forget those moments when words where not needed.
When we would just hold each other and look at each other. Those moments no words where needed and if you would only look at me you would see that through the tears, the weak moments of anger that no words need to be spoken because my eyes, my soul and my heart, would show you.
Like they did all those times when we were lost in each other.
Never has anyone captured my heart, my passion the way you have. Never have I felt so close to another human being on so many levels as I do with you.
Never have I been as content, at ease as when I was with you.
I just know we belong together, and you felt it to baby, you felt it to.
I love you, I love you so much. I just wish I could show you.


Window to the soul……

imageYou may not want to hear from me and you don’t care.
You may avoid me and that has made you forget.
I don’t know if you ever really wanted me (I still believe you once did, the eyes are the window to the soul.) but please know that once upon a time, something happened to me. It was the sweetest thing that could ever be. It was a fantasy, a dream come true. It was the day I met you and was loved by you.

From the first time I saw you, I thought it would last forever, I thought it would be me and you, side by side holding hands as if we were born together.
I truly believe we are soul mates and even something deeper than that, we are old bones, I know it, I feel it.

What am trying to say is that you’re the better half of me.
I love you deeply and there is nothing that can change that about me.
My heart wants to be with you and give you the whole world and everything you ever wanted in life.
I want us to be together and want everything to be ok. We have come way too far to let something come between us.
The sound of your voice is music to my ears so soft and sweet and the kiss from your lips, words can not explain, they took away my worries and my pain. The sight of your lovely face takes away all my fears. The caress of your hand sent the most amazing shivers through my body.
You’re the one I want to love throughout the years, I really believe I can’t stop it even if I wanted to.
An eternity I want to spend in your arms
We are meant for each other and we are over-comers no matter what happens.
The life I had with you is worth dying for and my heart doesn’t want to let go.
Please don’t let go either 😦
Let us battle this fight together.
Sometimes our minds can give us so many thoughts and we even become confused on what to do and how to do but let us follow our hearts because the mind can deceive us on issues that can make us forget what the future could hold for us.
Babe there is no doubt about my feelings for you because I love you and YES I DO.
I would give my life for you with all my heart , I would do anything to be with you. I love the moments we laugh and our jokes and tears, I love your smile, your lips, your hair, your blue eyes, I love you and I will always love you. Because forever is a long time but I wouldn’t mind spending it by your side.
I love you more than words can ever say, you’re all I’ve ever wanted and more. I could never have dreamed I would find someone as perfectly suited to me as you are. I start my days thinking about you and end them the same way,

Just know you are and will always be the best of me.
Loving you for a life time and beyond.