I just spent your first Christmas without you.
Every moment of every hour was spent thinking how things should have been.
How I’m sure you would have been smiling and laughing, showing more interest in the boxes than the pressies that Santa would have left you.
It broke my heart for you not to be with me and Marly.
It was a hard hard day and you were never out of my thoughts.
I love you so much my sleeping angel.
I wish you were here, as I wish many other things.

No matter the silience I have to carry out and the words I can not let pass my lips, thoughts and feelings do not change.
No amount of silience can change that.