Brick by brick

imagePeople keeping asking me why I don’t open up to anyone anymore or even on here.
The truth is, once you start to love or like someone as a friend, eg find a friend who you feel you can trust and always want in your life, they either move, die or betray you or force you to be silent.
Truth of the matter is, no matter how I feel, I am forbidden to write those feelings down, I’m told not to feel them but you know what, it doesn’t stop me feeling them, wanting or needed what I do, all it does is eat away at the little remaining of my beating heart and destroys my soul.
It turn breaking me more than I have ever been broken, still it does not stop me loving, all it does is build the walls higher than ever before.
Brick by brick it crushes my heart and soul but never stops me loving him.


Hidden blessings

imageTrue strength comes when you have so much to cry and complain about, but you prefer to smile and appreciate your life instead. There are blessings hidden in every struggle you face, but you have to be willing to open your heart and mind to see them. You can’t force things to happen. You can only drive yourself crazy trying. At some point you have to relax and let things happen it the right time, place and moment.Be patient and all will happen.It is meant to be.

Finding strength

imageIt’s hard to accept, but you can’t change the past. You can’t go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen, no matter how much you want to. So much I would change but also so much I wouldn’t.
But you can change the future and that’s a beautiful thing about life.
Yes, you will make mistakes.
And yes, you will have bad days – but as long as you believe you could have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you.
Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.

Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvellous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.

Hoping this positive thinking helps me through the day, I need all my strength right now and can not possibly have any tears left to cry.


imageSometimes there are things in our life that we never want to change.
Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really don’t need.
And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll ever have to do,
but sometimes it’s saying “good-bye” that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you’ll ever know.
Sometimes change is too much to bear, and destroys your life.
Sometimes that change is what slowly kills your heart and soul.
Sometimes all you want to do is change things back.
For changing things back will give you that hug that will mend all those broken piece even if it’s the one that can mend you, is the one who broke you.
Still all you want is them to fix you.
Sometimes the heart can be a strange thing that you will never understand.

Not worthy.

imageAs soon as someone critiques and criticizes you, as soon as you are rejected, you might find yourself thinking, “Well, that proves once again that I am not worthy.” What you need to realize is, these other people are NOT worthy of YOU and your particular journey.

Rejection is necessary medicine.
It teaches you how to reject opportunities that aren’t going to work, so can quickly find new ones that will.
Rejection doesn’t mean you aren’t good enough, it means the other person failed to notice what you have to offer.
It means you have more time to improve your thing to build upon your ideas, to perfect your craft, and indulge deeper in to the work that moves you.

From a life time of being told I’m not good enough and feeling it more so than ever over the last few months.
I’m trying so hard to stand by the words written.
Self dealt mixing with others attitude can destroy any belief in yourself or others you may inflict the same valves on.
Stay true to yourself and be kind to others.
Words hurt and even kill.
Kindness only brings light.

We mask

imageSometimes we try to show the world we are flawless in hopes that we will be liked and accepted by everyone, but we can’t please everyone and we shouldn’t try.
The beauty of us lies in our vulnerability, our complex emotions, and our authentic imperfections.
When we embrace who we are and decide to be authentic, instead of who we think others want us to be, we open ourselves up to real people, real happiness, and real success.
There is no need to put on a mask. Just be you, you will be loved for who you are, the real you.

Never forget.

imageLife isn’t all about timing.
Let life take you by surprise here and there.
Do not be afraid to try something new.
Life is not complicated, it’s the people who make it seems like that.
Some of the moments that take our breath away are unexpected.
It may be a moment you never imagined. Be brave and ready to grab the chance and it will be something that you will never forget!

Trust me I have lived it once and it will never be forgot.
But be careful once you feel it, live it nothing can compare, nothing can ever come close.

Here is what I know now .


When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I’ve lost all care for the things I own
That’s when I miss you, that’s when I miss you, that’s when I miss you
You who are my home
You who are my home
And here is what I know now
Here is what I know now
Goes like this..
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love.