People keeping asking me why I don’t open up to anyone anymore or even on here.
The truth is, once you start to love or like someone as a friend, eg find a friend who you feel you can trust and always want in your life, they either move, die or betray you or force you to be silent.
Truth of the matter is, no matter how I feel, I am forbidden to write those feelings down, I’m told not to feel them but you know what, it doesn’t stop me feeling them, wanting or needed what I do, all it does is eat away at the little remaining of my beating heart and destroys my soul.
It turn breaking me more than I have ever been broken, still it does not stop me loving, all it does is build the walls higher than ever before.
Brick by brick it crushes my heart and soul but never stops me loving him.