Don’t expect everyone to understand your journey. Especially, if they’ve never had to walk your path, but maybe some of you can relate.
I think throughout this blog/website I described my different moods/ feelings and how difficult it is to get through it.
I feel like I am never going to get to a stage, where I understand them.
I mean, I’m having a really good day and I’m really happy.
But my happiness is just too much.
It feels like I’m putting all of my positive energy I’ve ever had in this one day.
and the day after?
The day after is the complete opposite.
I’ll feel down and useless.
I don’t want to talk to anyone and I keep my distance.
It’s not that I’m lazy and I don’t want to talk to them. But it feels like I can’t…I’m trying but something keeps holding me back.
I fake a smile and I say everything is fine.
I’m just tired.
Maybe I am.
Who knows what’s going on but the only thing I do is to distance myself from anyone and anything so in the end…the only thing that’s left is myself.
Myself and my thoughts.
And I can say these thoughts are thoughts I normally try to run away from.
Questions come up.
And they just depress me even more.
This situation can last for different periods of time. Sometimes a few hours, sometimes a day or two.
And after my positive energy is back, I’m back to the person who wants a love for life.
Can any of you relate?