But most of all……

imageDear our baby bean, I wanted your daddy to hold me when we lost you.
I wanted him to hold me through the pain.
I wanted him to hold me through the times I was so poorly in hospital.
I wanted him to be there holding my head when I woke after surgery.
I needed him to hold me through my results and I needed him to hold me through the last devastating month.
And all I want is to hold him, when he’s had a bad day, a scary day or just a low day but more so on the good happy days, but I could hold him in joy, laughter and pride.
But most of all in friendship and love.
That’s what I miss the most my best friend.