Patiently waiting……..

imageSurrender your worries and embrace peace and life.
Realise that, somewhere within us all, there does exist a deeper self who is eternally at peace. Because inner peace does not depend on external conditions.
It’s what remains when you’ve surrendered your ego and worries.
Peace can be found within you at any place and at any time. It’s always there, patiently waiting for you to turn your attention toward it.
Peace of mind arrives the moment you come to peace with what’s on your mind. It happens when you let go of the need to be anywhere but where you are, physically and emotionally. This acceptance of the way things are creates the foundation for inner happiness.
The need for something to be different in this moment is nothing more than a worry, and worries simply lead you in circles.
Remember, the same part of you that longs for peace is the part of you that experiences peace. It is not complicated to achieve and is as close as your next thought.

Don’t let the pain make you desperate.

imageFrom the awareness of your thoughts and emotions you become able to consciously redirect your focus. It’s time to take it willingly away from something that drags you down, and focus it on something that inspires you. Focus on the next logical, meaningful step.
There are no hopeless situations. So keep your hope alive through positive thinking.

Don’t let the pain make you desperate.
Don’t let the negativity wear off on you.
Don’t let the bitterness steal your sweetness.

Spend your energy moving forward. Change your thoughts and your change your reality.
Our thoughts are the makers of our moods, the inventors of our dreams, and the creators of our will. That’s why we must sort through them carefully, and choose to respond only to those that will help us build the life we want, and the outlook we want to hold as we’re living it.
Even though my heart doesn’t agree with my head on this, positive thinking seems to be working right now, maybe just maybe, it’s because I’m loving life right now.
It’s truly beautiful.
Stay safe, stay happy and have an amazing day.
I know I’m going to. 😃

It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, and I’m feeling……

imageGood morning,wakey wakey, sleepy heads, it’s time to start another exciting day.
So are you up yet?
Of course you are, or you wouldn’t be reading this.
See the day is starting out great already, you’re alive.
It’s the 24th of February and once again we have noticed how fast time can pass and leave us behind living our lives and waiting always for something new to happen.
But what are you doing to start that happening ? Just like a car, your body and mind needs to be maintained, to insure that it runs at top performance every day, all day.
So let’s get up and warm the systems up, get some good quality fuel in you, and get ready to head out on today’s journey. It’s going to be an awesome day. With your body all fired up ready to go, take some time to free your mind of your troubles, in order to gain conscious control of what goes on in your mind, you need to develop a keen awareness for this. What helps is to hold still for a moment, take a deep breath and free your mind of all the chatter that’s going on inside and all around.
This makes room for a change of state, for something new to enter.
So give yourself a break.
Don’t say you can’t. Yes, you have battles out in the world to fight, insecurities to overcome, loved ones to contend with and goals to achieve, but a break from it all is necessary.
It’s perfectly healthy to pause and let the world spin without you for a while. If you don’t, you will burn yourself out. You must free you mind on a regular basis. That means catching your breath, finding quiet solitude, focusing your attention inward, and otherwise making time for recovery from the chaos of your routine.
Freedom has amazing powers, you just need to see and feel the clearer picture and take the world by storm.
You are the key to a happy lifestyle. If you don’t take care of your life and yourself, no one else will.
Don’t forget to smile. It keeps people guessing and smiling, your smile is beautiful, pass it on. 😄
Have a great day everyone.
Be safe, have fun, and be happy.

Turn the page

imageSelf-respect, self-love, self-worth…
there’s a reason they all start with “self.” You can’t receive them from anyone else. Earn the respect of others by having the audacity to respect yourself.
Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with pots of gold at both ends. It’s your responsibility, above all, to see your own value. And this responsibility to yourself means refusing to let others do your thinking, talking, and deciding for you.. it means learning to use your own brains and intuition to make things happen .. hence, grappling with hard work.
Appreciate what you have today.
Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.
No regrets, just lessons.
No worries, just acceptance.
No expectations, just gratitude.
Life is too short.
The story of your life has many chapters. One bad chapter doesn’t mean it’s the end.
So stop re-reading the bad one already, and turn the page.

It’s yours 😃

imageThey say “Life is what you make it.”
I haven’t always believed that saying because some people including me are just damn unlucky.
In the last few years my life has been so awful.
I really don’t know how I got through it and more often than not, I didn’t want to. I would have given anything to just go to sleep and never weak up. Life was way to much to handle.
And ok I admit I have the odd day that I still feel that way.
But something hit home the other day, life is what you make of it, it really is.
I’ve just got so use to being down on my luck and struggling with the hand I have been given that I just couldn’t see the clearer picture.
One large event (one that will turn into a small event later in life) made something click this week and my whole view changed.

At one of my visits to hospital this week, my constant looked across to me with a face like he was going to burst into tears.
I’m sure mine soon matched his as he told me the news that, he couldn’t do any more for me, that I have to learn to live with my illness be it weeks, months or years, I have to try to have a life as good as I can while trying to keep my actions as safe as I can. When asking how long I at best will have, my heart sank, the long for life hit me like a ton of bricks.
I’m sure he saw the panic in my eyes and he took my hand and told me the news I was dreading to hear.
At any time, my blood could clot and that will be that.
I guess I’m a ticking time bomb.
But we all are, are we not ?
Anything can happen to any of us at any time. When our times up its up, what’s the point of worrying about it.
Every day is a bonus, a huge one.
Each morning we should all be over joyed we are alive and breathing.
We should notice the simple things in life, and relish their beauty, like the way the light hits the walls in the morning sun, the butterflies dancing around the garden, the first snow drop as it lets us know, spring is on its way. The smell of coffee as it enlightens our senses, the frost of the leaves, that glisten as the world slowly wakes up, the feeling of soft crisp clean sheets, when the day looses it magic and the night sky comes alive. The twinkle of the stars be that a lost soul or a planet, they glow brightly so you are never alone or scared of the dark.
Life is truly a pleasure when you open your eyes, your mind and your heart.
Life is yours for the taking be in one minute or a week it’s yours.
Live, dream and follow your heart.

Conquer the pain….

imageDon’t ever be ashamed of the scars life has left you with.
A scar means the hurt is over and the wound is closed.
It means you conquered the pain, learned a lesson, grew stronger, and moved forward.
A scar is the tattoo of a triumph. So don’t allow your scars to hold you hostage. Don’t allow them to make you live your life in fear. You can’t make the scars in your life disappear, but you can change the way you see them. You can start seeing your scars as a sign of strength and not pain. If you have no other testimony right now, you have this one.
“I’m still here trying.” Be positive, patient and persistent. The more you feel like quitting, the more there is to be gained by continuing to do all three.
Because the strongest people aren’t the people who always win, but the people who don’t give up when they lose.

Keep your wings wrapped right around me

imageDear Zack,
Every day is special you know that don’t you Zack, because all my thoughts are apart of you.
Every day we still miss you too, because you know what I’m thinking in all I do.

I thought of you today and yesterday too but everyday I think of you and you alone know that this is true and I still miss you just the same.
I try to hold it together pretty well today and everyday but when I go to bed, the pain is just like new.
Before my head can hit the pillow, silent tears roll down my cheeks, my pillow leaks as I know I weep while I’m asleep, then there you are, slowly reaching for my hand, as we meet throughout my misty sleep, I feel the cold upon me as you pull in close and snuggle into me.

My eyes feel sore, I cannot see, if this is really real, your face before me I can see, you’re so tiny, perfect and sweet, I know its true it’s really you.

Keep your wings wrapped right around me for whenever I need to feel, protected by your love that shining right upon me, like the brightest star I’ll ever see.
I love you always, I always will, and never fear, I’m always near, just a thought away and because I think of you everyday. xxxxx
Forever and always in my heart.

Tiptoe if you must

imageSo please don’t give up on today because of the way things looked yesterday.
Don’t even think about it.
There is absolutely nothing about your present situation that prevents you from moving forward, one tiny step at a time.

Experience is the hardest kind of teacher. It gives you the test first and the lesson afterward.
But this is really a blessing. It means you’re growing stronger and more capable with every passing day.
Remember, vision without action is just a daydream.. vision must be combined with venture.
It is not enough to stare up the steps, you must step up the stairs. And all you have to do is take one step at a time. Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life.
Tiptoe if you must, but take that step.

To do it all again tomorrow.

imageDoes your life ever feel like your going around it cycles but still you are so lost?
Every day you wake up, drink coffee until you feel half human, all the while your inbox is filling up with emails that you have to deal with, voicemail with people wanting things from you.
One little lady demanding her breakfast.
And still you are still in this half awake mode, running in over drive.
Baby girl washed, dresses and fed and picked up for nursery.
Finally a chance to focus on house work, yep the same house work you carried out yesterday and every day before that.
A pointless task you carry out every day of adult life and for what? To do it all again tomorrow.
Clothes in the machine, how you would like ten minutes to watch those clothes spinning around and around, just to take your mind off the million and one things you have to do today.
House work done and dying for a coffee, you sit down at your pc/laptop dreading what you are going to open.
And rightly so !!!!

Rose, can you do this for me ?

Rosie, if you have five minutes can you make me a spreadsheet for …….., no rush but I need it by 3pm.

Rosa, want to meet for coffee?

Rose, hope you are doing ok, can I ask if you can do ………..

Reminder – hospital appointment at

Reminder – doctors appointment tomorrow at ……

Rose, would you mind making me a show play list, theme ……… I need it by first thing tomorrow.

The emails continue in this fashion. When did I become everyone’s left hand woman?
Shutting down the pc, mind racing as you jump into a taxi and go to the hospital.

Waiting waiting, they are running late again, silently getting cross, I have better things to do than sit here waiting.
Then told you need blood tests and to come back on ……. For more ct scans, echoes etc
I may as well move in, I’m there every day it seems at the moment.
And being told I must have bed rest.
Sorry that is not going to happen, well unless I move in but then I’m your pin cushion.
By the time I get home I’m totally exhausted but no rest for the wicked, tea to make, plans for tomorrow’s tea to sort.

Coffee in hand I start to tackle the endless list of jobs I have to do for others.
And wait for my evenings work to be dropped off and emailed through.

Tea cooking in the background, Mars running around with the puppy, I wish I had her energy.

Tea over, half way through my email jobs from others.
It’s finally my favourite part of the day.
Running a bath for Marly-Kate.
It’s our time, time I would not give up for the world.
As I tuck her in, set her alarms and read her, her bedtime story, I wish every moment was as calm and beautiful as that moment, when she kisses me goodnight and tells me she loves me.
She’s my shining light in this crazy world.

If I could only just sit down and think but still there is work to do.
Lunch boxes etc and my paid job.
Along with my never-ending list of jobs for others.
My consultants would have a fit.

Life seems to follow this pattern and I’m totally exhausted, I feel worse everyday and I’m stuck in this rat race called life but I’m not getting anywhere,
Running running in the same spot, I’m a hamster stuck on her wheel.
No way to get off but never getting to where I dream of being.

And this is what we call life.
Hasn’t there got to more to it than this?

A ship is safe in harbour.

imageAs they say, a ship is safe in harbour, but that’s not what ships are for.
Accepting some level of risk in life is important.
You cannot be both close-minded and wise. You have to open up to the unknown.
Close-minded people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics.
Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it’s the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world that occurs when we’re afraid it will hurt us or let us down.
Cynics always say “no.” Do the opposite. Saying “yes” begins things.
Saying “yes” is how things grow.
Saying “yes” leads to firsthand experience and knowledge.
So for as long as you have the strength to, say “yes.”