Part of you

imageA little note to myself which is so much needed today.

Don’t be ashamed to shed a tear.
To me tears clean the soul so you can once again see the beauty around you.

Being vulnerable only shows that you’re able to face the truth.. even the hard truth.. with dignity and with heart.

Open yourself up. Allow yourself to feel no matter how hard or torturing it may be.

Take down any emotional brick walls you have built around yourself and experience every emotion, both good and bad.
This is real life, you can’t hide from it, you can’t hide from the devastation, the hurt, the pain, the sorrow,the lose, the emptiness.

For what are we if we don’t feel?

We become cold-hearted, lost souls with no heart.
It really is ok to break down once in a while, you won’t be weak because of it.
And even though no amount of tears, pain and heartbreak can fix you or change anything, it’s better than closing down and denying what you feel. (I’ve been doing this a lot lately, not even admitting my true feelings to myself because the emotional pain is to great, to intense, to good damn painful.)

Your emotions are part of you, they are you.


No amount of never’s

imageI never got to tell you that I love you or to hold you in my arms
I never got to hold you close when you began to cry
I never got to see your toes or have your tiny finger wrap around mine.
I have got to burp you or see those first wind smiles
I never got to tuck you in and gently kiss you goodnight
I never got to watch you suckering as I held you in my arms
I never got to watch you grow or see your personality shine.
I never got to comfort you when you first tooth decided to show.
I never got to play raspberries on your soft tummy
I never got to see you smile or hear your delightful laugh
I never got to give you so many perfect memories which we both would have treasured dear.
I never got to say that’s my boy as I sparkled with pride.
I never got to see you walk or run while chasing butterflies
I never got to do all those small things a mummy does with love
But with all the never’s that you and I never got to see or do, no amount of never’s can stop me loving you.
Sleep peacefully my Angel until we are together again ❤️