Clear the soul

imageIt’s not the answers you get from others, or even the ones you formulate, that will help you in the long run.
It’s the simple questions you ask yourself on a regular basis that will determine the type of person you become.
Wisdom is about asking the right questions.
Regardless of your age or stature, life is always filled with unanswered questions. It is the courage to ask these questions and adventurously get the answers that continues to give life meaning.
Have patience with everything that remains unresolved in your heart for answers can clear the soul of any misgivings you may have.

I assure you

imageGood morning.
If you’re reading this, congratulations, you’re Alive.
And if you can’t find a reason to smile about that, you’ll have an awfully tough time finding a better reason to do so.
Time spent living is time worth appreciating. You are able to see the sunrise and the sunset. You are able to hear birds sing and waves crash onto the store.
You can walk outside and feel the breeze…the sun’s warmth on your skin…the rain drops trickling down you face.
When you make the most out of what you have, it turns out being a lot more than you ever imagined.

A beautiful day begins with a beautiful mindset.

When you wake up, take a second to think about what a privilege it is to simply be alive. Breathe onto the bathroom mirror, just to see how amazing your breath looks (brush your teeth first, morning breath is not so good😜). The moment you start acting like life is a blessing, it will start to feel like one.

Movement

imageNot all movement is progress.
When stress and tension and chaos surround you, pause for a moment and relax.
The best time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it. Select a specific challenge, deal with it, and then move calmly and confidently to the next.
When you’re being pulled in multiple directions at once, take time to remember what you value most. Focus on what’s most important to you and you’ll naturally direct your greatest energy to the right source.
Life is filled with either problems or possibilities. What you see is what you choose to see. On the surface life can seem tumultuous and perplexing, yet deep inside, where it truly matters, life is what you make of it.
Choose to see beyond the problems to the possibilities that await your attention.

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Silly me

imageSo it’s been a long day, one that has me wrapped in a blanket with one and deep purple hands, cold sweats, pain and brain fuss.
I hate days like these, I should say nights to.
I made a huge mistake of forgetting to take my medicines last night and boy didn’t I learn the hard way.
One mistake I will not make again.

It’s so strange, I feel rough everyday, totally exhausted and in pain but my god, last night was an eye opener.
I really had started to believe that my meds didn’t work, that when the sun shines a slight relief comes.
Me being me though I always battle against it, I do what I can, until I fall into bed where I fight the night sweats, the nightmares and the tossing and turning, 4 hours sleep seems to be my max but it pulls me through.
Last night was horrific and today followed suit.
Maybe the constant rain hasn’t helped but I know I am fully to blame for feeling like this.
Those of you that know me know I don’t often moan at how I feel, or let on how bad the bad days are.
But my thinking here is that if shame myself in front of you all, I may never forget the take my meds again, because I know the back lash I am going to get from you all.
After my post this morning I have to find a silver lining to today.

Sofa days rules ( they don’t happen enough in our home)

The biggest killer

imageDecide this minute to never again beg anyone for the respect, and attention that you should be showing yourself.
Be your own best friend.
Trust your inner spirit and follow your heart. Accept who you are completely, the good and the bad, and make changes in your life as YOU see fit, not because you think anyone else wants you to be different, but because you know it’s the right thing to do, for YOU.
Be the person you will be happy to live with for the duration of your life.
Don’t rely on anyone else, for your happiness and self-worth, because in the end they will always let you down.
Know that if you can’t love and respect yourself, no one else will be able to either.
Self judgement is the biggest killer.

Flip side

imageIf you are too afraid of failure, you can’t possibly do what needs to be done to succeed in living a fulfilling life.
The key is to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Comfort is state of being in which to find rest and renewal for a short time.. it is a dreary and dismal place to remain permanently.
If you don’t challenge yourself on a regular basis, by taking small steps into unfamiliar territory, your abilities and effectiveness will become stale and weak.
The reason life can be so rewarding is precisely because nothing is guaranteed.
Some of your best life experiences and opportunities will come to you only after you dare to lose. When your efforts are met with failure, you know you are on to something…because on the flip-side of that failure is a real, substantial accomplishment that doesn’t come easy. Your failed attempt is simply evidence that you are reaching higher.
And “higher” is always the best direction to travel in.

Dare to jump

imageToday is a new day.. a new beginning.
You have been given this day to use as you please. You can waste it or you can use it for something worthwhile.
Either way, what you do today is important because you are exchanging a day of your life for it. You can’t always wait for the perfect time, because there may be no such thing. Sometimes you must dare to jump.
It is only possible to live happily ever after on a daily basis because life, fate may have other plans for you so laziness and procrastination may appear attractive, but action leads to happiness, or go along way towards it.
Great challenges make life interesting… overcoming them makes life meaningful.
When tomorrow comes, today will be gone forever. In its place will be something that you have left behind.
Let it be something worthwhile… something you are thankful for.

Further and further outside yourself

imageYou have to create your own love in life…
define your own meaning…
and harbor your own inspiration.
Start from your inside…not somewhere else..
start asking yourself questions that lead you further and further outside yourself.
Character and wisdom are sculpted over time.

They come with loss, lessons, and triumphs. They come after doubts, second guesses, and exploring unknowns.
If there were a definitive path to happiness and success, everyone would be on it. The seeds of your progress are planted in your past failures. Your best stories will come from overcoming your greatest struggles. Your praises will come from your pains.
So keep standing, keep learning, and keep living.

Heart to heart

imageHeart to heart

So the weekend is over and as I step back into my every day life that if I have to admit it’s pretty good even if it is a struggle.
The weekend is over but is playing havoc with my mind.
One of my long time friends came to stay for the weekend and even though I had a blast in spending time with someone I do not give enough time to and picking up my camera, which I’m told I do not do enough.
Our imaginations ran wild and I felt a sense of pride in myself as photography came back to me so naturally.
It’s been a long time since I picked my camera up, I guess I just haven’t felt well enough to let my mind race with the possibilities that light can give us. My phone is my snap happy camera, as I just haven’t had the mind-set to do anything other than pull it out my pocket and take standard pictures, with no thought or love.
It felt good to see an image I had created with my mind, my heart and my soul.
It also felt good to laugh and smile until I was told to sit, and listen.
A good old heart to heart began.

I sat and listened to my friend tell me that I have lost not only my sparkle, but the life from my eyes.

I was told that no amount of my trying would ever replace, the glow I once had, that no smile will ever match, the one I wore and no amount of trying will ever mend the part of me that broke into a trillion pieces that day my life, my love, my heart and soul came crashing down around me.

The funny thing is I already know that, but hearing it from one of my life long friends, kind of brought it home.

I’ve forgotten how to truly be happy, to truly smile, to be the person who had her dream in her hands and the love of her life in her life.
That love, that undying love that made me glow, that made my heart take flight, that love that made me breathe in air for the first time, that love that completed me.

I have finally had to face that life no matter how hard I try to be happy, normal, care free, will always be filled with an emptiness so deep within my soul, that my eyes will never shine and twinkle the way I wish they would, the way they did when I was with him.

It’s hard to hear from friends that even though I smile, laugh, joke and live, that my eyes hold no secrets and bear all to see, that my light will never burn as brightly and beautifully as they once did.
I’ve always said the eyes are the window to the soul, I just didn’t see that my soul is so easy to read.