I’m still

Last night I sat and cried, cried deeper and harder than I’ve allowed myself to for a long time.
I let my mind race and it bought sorrow so painful I felt my heart shatter into a trillions more pieces.
I tried to pull myself together, I tried I really did, but the harder I tried the heavy the sorrow descended, the tears heavier and I broke all over again.
I try so hard, so good damn hard to learn to be me again, to slowly glue those tiny pieces of my heart and soul back together.
The sad truth, but the whole heartedly truth is I’m still broken, totally and utterly broken.💔