There has been a lot about depression and suicide in the press as of late and considering I’ve tried to commit suicide in the past and have suffered depression more times than I care to admit, I thought I best touch base on the subject.
It is always heart breaking to think that someone felt they had no other option apart from to give up and leave this earth, leaving behind utter devastation and heartbreak for their loved ones, but I get it, I truly do.
I know it’s not easy to open up and talk, to admit not only to others but to ourselves that we feel death is the best option.
When you’re that low, it seems no amount of common sense or words can help you.
Your anger and utter disappointment in yourself, only makes matters worse but trust me, when you let one brick fall from your defence wall, the others will follow, slowly but they will, I promise you that. You can get through it, you can beat the feeling and although it may always be there, that nagging voice you can’t stand to hear, in time it will fade into the distance, muffled by your strength and determination to not let it win.
And even though it will be the hardest battle of your life, just think how wonderful it will feel to give it the finger. Trust me it’s an amazing feeling, a feeling to believe it, to stride for.
YOU CAN DO IT
To all the friends and family out there, Never ever think that because someone takes photos of themselves laughing and smiling, going on fancy nights outs, going on holidays etc that they are happy.
Everyone has thoughts that keep them awake at night, everyone creates bad scenarios in their minds thinking what if, but why, should I, why did that happen.
The truth is everyone is fighting their own battles, I’ve fought my own over the years and I’m finally strong enough to be able to deal with my demons in a much better way.
So listen when family or friends need to talk, give them your time, no matter how busy you are.
Please be kind and think before you spit out them words to hurt people, because you don’t know if that’s the last time you will see that person again.
Depression, bullying and lack of empathy kills, don’t that that be on your shoulders.