When the days are harder than I let on to everyone, I have to pull strength from happy times, wonderful times, the most incredible time of my life so far.

When I can’t find the light I look back through my journals I have written to Ross.
I find my strength and peace in those times, those memories, those feelings.

Snippets of love, joy, contentment and hope.
These words written with love, give me something to grasp hold of.

So if you are having a bad day, and need some strength, maybe they will help you out of the darkness.
(I will add more as I come across them)

“It’s like a door opened, the world shifted and there is no way of going back to how things were before it opened.”

“That smile always just makes all my worries fade away.”

“Drowning in your sea of blue. Your soul pulls me in, happily drowning in love”

“That feeling, that spark, has to be worth it, right ?”

“I will never forget how your lush curly hair bounces off your forehead when you’ve eaten too much sugar and can’t hold still, just one little thing I love about you x”

“Every last caress and feeling you so innocently laid upon my skin carved it’s way into my soul as the earth makes a groove in a stone.”

Ross = Ross
Owns
Sexy
Status ❤️

“No matter what, I don’t want us to stop being us ❤️”

I heard today, that you will only be content in life if you marry your best friend.
How flipping lucky am I because I’m head over heals in love with YOU and Ross your my one and only best friend.

They say you have to judge a man by the way they handle the Christmas lights.
That’s how I know you are perfect because you would handle them with care and respect, if you know what I mean.
Your carefully pack them away each year, making sure they are perfect for the next year. No tangled lights to puzzle out. Each bulb checked and working. They will be just perfect because every detail you put into everything, always is. Just like you are.

After all the mistakes I’ve made, I finally got it right.

Fate worked its magic and let the rat race slow down enough to fit all the pieces together, US ❤️

The perfect moment isn’t just one, it’s every second of being with the one you love.
It’s being in love.
I’m head over heels in LOVE with YOU.

When you hold me, I know that nothing can ever be bad again because I’ve got you.

When I’m worried about something or just don’t know what to do, I listen to my heart, I listen to
you.
Ross Marks you are my heart ❤️

Every time you tell me you love me, I get my happy ever after.

We should never let a situation slip through our fingers when love can put it right.

You give me the courage to feel.
You give me the courage to love
You give me the courage to live.
You give me the courage to hope.
You give me the world.
You give me you.
I give you the courage to feel.
I give you the courage to love.
I give you the courage to live.
I give you the courage to hope.
I give you the world.
I give you me.

There is only one guarantee in life.
That I will always love you.

It’s all our little moments that gets me through being away from you.

When we are laying together snuggled as closely and snug as if nature had formed us together it’s like we are in our prefect happy ever after.
That’s what we are a fairytale come true.

Our memories are wonderful moments that become a form of energy that make us know it’s forever love.

When we first kissed I breathed in life for the first time.

The way I see it, there ain’t no bigger and more powerful force in the whole universe than LOVE itself.

Love makes the world go round. It’s the glue that hold everything together.

The moment I first felt the true me, 100% complete.
The days I first saw you walking towards me.

It starting to feel like I can not breathe without you in my arms.

We are not perfect
You know I’m not the brightest button in the box
And your a night owl (that’s not a fault at all)
But we love each other and that’s all that matters.
Two souls that fall into each other’s life’s, contacting on level, that no one could ever understand.
Who fall not just deeply in love but became best friends to.
To me that makes us perfect together.

Your always there, you never judge me, pity me, never get angry, always listen you make me smile, and ALWAYS give me butterflies. Thank you baby, thank you, thank you. I love you xxxxooooxxxx

When you hold me, your heartbeat is the most beautiful, amazing soundtrack to love.
If we could stay in each others arms forever, there would be no need for music.

I believe in fairytales, I do, I do.
You’re my happy ever after ❤️

This Love stuff is complicated but if it was simple it wouldn’t show us that it’s worth fighting for.

That first journey back after the first time I was with you was the hardest and saddest time of my life, leaving you was incredibly painful but also the happiest.
Wow I had met my soul mate and you were more, so much more than I could could have ever imagined.
Wow just wow. ❤️

Everything seems easy when I look at you and see my universe smiling back at me. 🌍

I meet the most amazing guy in the world.
My heart skips a beat at the sight of him
The first kiss hello though it was short and sweet took my breath away. I know that instant that this was more than anything I had ever felt before.
The next few hours were incredible
Learning each other, touching, loving, loosing myself in you.
My life was suddenly complete. The most wonderful feeling I have ever experienced.
My life suddenly had new meaning, I felt whole for the first time in 29 years.
The over powering feeling of live surrounded me and lifted me to a new level.
Knowing I was being loved back by the most amazing person I have ever met.
The look in your eyes, the smell of your skin, the feel of your hair between my finger, all a dream come true.
As you held my hands as we showed each other how deep our love runs.
That moment was the most perfect moment of my life.
Heart racing, more in love then I have ever felt before
You my darlin are the bees knees and I love love love you.
No one will ever compare to you.
I truly believe we are a match made in heaven, that our souls belong together.

I love you
Even if there isn’t any sun,
Any moon, any moon, any air
Or any life.

When we first got in contact with each other I never knew it would end like this
Me being so in love I feel like I don’t exist anymore
All I care about is you
I never knew I would find the best friend I could ask for
That my life meaning would change the way it has.
The laughs, the caring, the loving, the naughtiness,
It’s all been a dream
And through your love I have grown and opened up to the most amazing person I’ve ever met.
You have helped me more than you know to get through the hardest scariest times in my love and I will always be grateful for that.
My world, my attitude, my views have changed for the better thanks to you
Now I am deeply in love and love that I am.
I have given you my heart and soul.
I will forever love you.
Thank you for being you ❤️

I know we have our little disagreements, or simply argue for no reason but I wouldn’t change US for the world.
Because I knew the moment that I spoke to you, that we are as perfect as chocolate chips and ice cream.🍦
I felt the nervous butterflies dancing in my tummy as I found the words that meant the most, the tiny words, I Love You. ❤️

When I first saw you, even the air and ocean fall in love, because my love for you has no limits ❤️

For the first time ever I can feel the blood pumping through my veins.
I’ve learnt that touch is more intense than I could ever imagine.
I know how that your heart still can miss a thousand beats and it really is incredible.
You have shown me what being alive really means.
You are the fire in my soul.
You are the reason for me living.

Funny how life twists and turns.
Living through the highs and lows can be exhausting at times, but I have now learnt that the highs are so worth the lows and when excitement and joy take over your day, everything is beautiful, full of colour and wonder and that light at the end of the tunnel is in my hands glowing brightly.
I don’t know what to call this feeling but I know why and who has given my this incredible happiness.
Why I see life as a gift instead of a battle.
It all started with a new friendship that grow into something so special no other can compare. That friendship then fall into love, a over powering love that takes over my world and gives me the energy to flight any darkness that try’s to destroy my light everyday.
With this love, I have learnt to see the goodness and the light that surrounds me.
Life now is worth living, it’s a blessing and an adventure that I wish to share with my soul mate, the guy who changed my life for the better – YOU ❤️
Who gave me strength and hope. You gave me life and I’m finally living.

Tonight was so hard, so so so so so freaking hard. I’m so heartbroken and I just don’t know what to do with myself.
I had to stand there while you got on the train to go home while I got on a different train and we watched each other leave, I was crying so hard as I do every time we say our goodbyes at the station.
In the journey back I couldn’t think straight, it feels like I’ve lost part of my mind, like part of me is missing, and I’ve been searching for something to remind me that it wasn’t all a dream. I have no idea what to do from here. I need my Ross back by my side.
I’m hurting so deeply, its not just missing being able to see you and touch you and talk to you, I miss being able to turn to you and just knowing you are at most a few meters away from me. This is so hard. I had no idea how hard this was going to be every time we have to say goodbye.
My heart is so twisted right now, I feel like all my insides have been tied up in knots and my bones have been replaced with paper, I feel so weak without you.
I’ve never needed someone so much in all my life, but now I’ve felt what its like to be loved and be part of something other than myself I feel so helpless.
I’ve never been loved so unconditionally like you love me, you are the most amazing person on this earth, ever to have lived, you are my world, you are my life and you are everything to me, without you I’m not even just a mess, I’m a purposeless mess.
This is so freaking hard. I need you, I love you, I miss you.
I love love love you.

Sometimes it feels so surreal that you are actually right here. Like, right next to me. You are on the bed and I can look up right now and see you. I can walk three feet to you. You are so close and so real. I just like to stare at you sometimes like when you’re walking, talking, laughing, sleeping, every moment of everyday and just appreciate your non-digital format. It’s like every dream has come true and life is perfect, totally utterly perfect ❤️

It’s amazing how someone can be hundreds of miles away from you, and the mere thought of them still puts a smile on your face! True Love sets no boundaries.

You are my hero. You have given me a new lease on life – this time last year I would never have had had the courage to do half the things I can do now. You are more than I could have ever dreamed of. With you, it feels as though anything is possible.

I miss your warm hugs, your sweet smile, I miss the feeling I get when you hold my hand, I miss the way you look into my eyes and tell me without a word, that you love me, I miss waking up and you being the first person I see and watching you sleep…I guess what I’m trying to say is…I miss you 😢 but only one more day baby and our hearts can melt again 💙

Two people meant to be together, Two lovers dreaming of forever, And it just keeps on getting better, With every tender little pm.

In your arms I see strength, in your smile I see love, in your eyes I see tomorrow, and all our tomorrows for the rest of our lives. You are my one & only.

The voice of a god, I’m walking in heaven.😇

If I ever told you that you were a “one in a million”, I lied…you are a “once in a lifetime” 😍

I never asked for someone who could offer me the stars in the night. Just someone to lay down and watch them with is enough. But I have been given the earth, the moon the whole sky. You are my world and I love you 💗

Ross Marks – A person with whom I have an immediate connection the moment we meet – a connection so strong that you are drawn to them in a way you have never experienced. I LOVE YOU baby.

Life is for living, I live mine for you. Love is for giving, I give mine to you. Hearts are for beating, mine beats for you. Dreams are full of meaning, mine are of you. You are my eyes, I see to see you, you are my ears, I hear to hear you. You are my touch, I touch to touch you.
I love you Ross ❤️

If you look deep in side you will find, the truth. The only Truth, I LOVE YOU. I need you, I want you and no matter what, I will always LOVE YOU. I dont care where we live, where we shop, if its near the sea or wood. I dont care as long as we are together. I LOVE YOU, look deep deep inside and you will see it.💗

Nothing in this world can take the place of you. I have loved you from the beginning and I will love you till the end!😍

I will love you with every dawn and I will love you with every dusk. I love you because, my heart feels safe within your hands, within you arms, within your voice, within your smile. I love you and I will love only you

Sometimes, I can almost feel You with me. I wake to find myself sleepily saying good morning to you on my empty pillow. When I’m walking, I leave an Ross-sized space next to me on the pavement, and sometimes I swear I can feel your hand in mine.

If its amazing it won’t be easy, If its easy it won’t be amazing… We sure are amazing together ❤️

The sun rose and set today – like every other day but no one knows my world has stopped. It will move only when we are together again.
Good night Ross, you’re in my heart, soul and thoughts always. Sleep peacefully. Feel my kisses in the breeze and my whispers of my love for you. Sweet dreams. I love you xxxxxooooooxxxxx

Don’t use your duvet, please just think about my love and it will warm you. Don’t use a pillow, please just think about my hands holding your head. Good night baby, I love you xxxxxoooooxxxxx

What is love? In math, a problem. In history, a battle. In science, it’s a reaction. In art, it’s a heart. But to me? Love always will and simply be, you.❤️

I miss our play fights, our teasing, our hugs, our hour long conversations, you know I guess I just miss you, I miss us

Don’t count the miles, count the I Love Yous ❤️

I love you baby, thank you for giving me a reason to smile, to get up in the morning, to breath. You are my everything baby. If only I could express my feelings for you, show you that your all I want and how much I love you.
You really are my reason to live and I love you with everything I am. I want to grow old with you and wake up with you every morning.

Promise you’ll hold me, touch me, love me…way past forever.💗

When I first ever told you “I love you” I meant it with all my heart.
When I tell you “I will love you forever” I mean it with every beat of my heart and still love you more everyday.
There’s no one else for me.
Nothing or anyone else could ever make me change my mind about you. I love you and I always will. Forever and always.
“Good night and sweet dreams Ross I love you” xxxxoooooxxx

LOVE is knowing you are going to spend everyday of every month of every year with the same person, and thinking…this is EXACTLY how it should be.

Being in love with the man that treats you like a priceless, knows when something is wrong, and loves you for who you are.
Totally the best feeling in the world, Thank you baby xxx I love you to the moon and back. ❤️

You wrote this to me today and WOW just WOW you summed up how I feel for you perfectly.
“when being without your partner hurts, when minutes apart feels like hours, when you are together time goes far to quick, when you would rather have them screaming in your face than not hearing from them at all. when they tell you they love you and you know they mean it, when it makes your body warm and you feel safe. you will know when you are in love.” ❤️❤️❤️

Your the man that I laugh with, to the man I share my joys and fears with, to the man that makes me weak at the knees, to the man of my dreams and the LOVE of my life. My Gorgeous other half.
I LOVE you ROSS MARKS. ❤️

Do you know what’s really heart warmingly special and makes me weak at the knees … You look at me, really look at me, deep within my soul. I like that, I love you.

Your eyes are engraved in my heart. Your name is etched on my heart forever. Your love you give is deeply embedded in my soul forever.
I breathe for you. I live for you. You are my only smile in this world where I don’t feel so lonely and lost. You are the one with whom I want to spend the rest of my life. I love you with all my heart and soul.
I wish I was there to hold you tight, instead of just sending you this loving “Good Night.” Sweet dreams and remember if you may that I love love love you xxxxxxoooooxxxxxxx

To lay next to you while you sleep, is one of the most wonderful experience I’ve ever experienced.
Laying next to you, my heart skips a trillion beats, as you reach for my hand.
With each breath you draw, and the rise and fall of your chest, we breathe in the same air, pulling us that little bit closer together. I’m lost in dream, a dream that came true.
I lay with my hand intwined with my other half of my soul and I feel whole.
Your a dream that came true, the most delightful magical dream and I love, love, love you.

I Love You – these three words have my life in them. ❤️

I never asked for someone who could offer me the stars in the night. Just someone to lay down and watch them with is enough. But I have been given the earth, the moon the whole sky. You are my world and I love you.✨

They say that, life is for living, I live mine for you.
They say that, Love is for giving, I give mine only to you.
They say that, hearts are for beating, mine beats only for you.
They say that, dreams are full of meaning, mine are only of you. ❤

We were given 2 hands to hold, 2 legs to walk, 2 eyes to see, 2 ears to listen, but why only 1 heart?
Because the other was given to someone else for us to find. We are the lucky ones, we found each other’s and now we are complete. ❤️

 
I can’t wait to the time that we have both told each other everything, every memory, every special memories and even the not so special memories in life so far. And all we have left to to sit in our arm chairs by the fire as we reminisce all our own special memories, our own extra special moments and as we do so we will be making even more wonderful, heartfelt memories, those moments that we cherish together forever.