My soul awakens

As the sun raises over the moors, the grass glistening as the rays dance off the morning dew. 

As the owl glides gracefully in search of his morning pray.

The dragonflies float aimlessly over the bubbling brook, as the butterflies whirl and twirl elegantly through the sun rays, my soul wakens to the beauty of life.

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Growing older

There is something about getting older that changes you, you seem to see things through a different light. Life somehow becomes a lot clearer, more noticeable, more beautiful.
You start to appreciate everything that around you, from the view, the fragrances, the shadows, the light, the people, the books you read, the hobbies you undertake, the friendships, your family.
Friendships seem to be a big change for me, I’ve worked out that it’s better to have fewer friends, than a list of people who are on your social media, that really you know nothing about, you never see them and you wouldn’t go out your way to make plans to go and spend time with them, if we are all honest, they or yourself would only say hi, in the street and move on, that not friendship, well it’s not in my eyes.
Few and far between seems a much better picture, you somehow know that they are the ones you want to spend time with, they are the ones that you will pick the phone up to or randomly message just to make sure they are ok. They are the ones that no matter how long it has been since you last saw them, it only seems like yesterday when you were together. No uncomfortable silence, no word blocks, no uncomfortableness, just contentment and ease.
These are your true friends. The ones that are always there no matter what, the ones that know that we are all getting older but want to share that journey with you. They are the ones that understand that life is hard and that it gets in the way, but no hard feelings arise if you have to cancel or change plans at the last-minute. That to me is what true friendship means.
And that’s one of the good things about adding a number to your year of age, knowing that somehow in that last year or so, you’ve worked out, part of what it means to be honoured to have a few special people in you life.
So as my friends and family toast their glasses to wish me a happy birthday this weekend, I know I’m in the best of company and to me, it makes getting older worthwhile.🎂

Flashback Friday

imageFlashback Friday is upon us again.
I love reading back old posts and remembering how I felt while writing the post, ok some drive me to tears, of joy, pain or loss even anger. But al in all, I find it kinda calming on my soul. And even if at times I cringe at how badly they were written the are part of me.
So today post is from a time that I was the happiest I have ever been and it saddens me that I know I will never feel the way I did back then, to feel loved, content and complete. Somehow though I am truly grateful I got to feel those feelings, to live those emotions and to know that I once had at all.
I would give anything to have that all again and be in the arms of the man I will always love, no matter how much time passes by.
So would I change things now, hell YES I would.

Would I change things?

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The pages of my life, how ever charming, delightful, traumatic, bitter and unpleasant they have been, are written.
Unmarked pages lay in front on me, ready for the next chapter.
Will they be kinder, will the dreams I seek unfold and draw beautiful pictures in my memory ?
Will the pages hold wonderful colours of love, happiness and contentment as they do now.
Will life still be a exciting adventure ?
Who can tell, it’s one walk that I will only know the destination when I arrive 🙂 and while I am travelling along the new magical paths ahead of me and leaving memory’s behind, story’s to tell, I will be learning and growing forming who I am.

So would I turn back the hands of time and rewrite the pages.
Giving myself peace and happiness and changing the negative ?

In true honesty I wouldn’t change it all.
Yes a few things I would change, just to withdraw the suffering I caused to others.
But while I look back at how nauseating parts of my life have been. I believe that I am who I am today because of this.
I accept and trust that I have grown through it and I’m strong because of grave situations I have been faced with.

So no I would not rewrite the pages of my life, I instead stand proud at the struggles I have triumphed.

I believe every path has a meaning, in light or darkness, there is a lesson, a meaning, a reason, it’s all apart of the bigger picture.
It’s the journey of your soul.
It’s a creation of your spirit.
It’s your destiny
It’s you.

Capturing time, life, heart and soul

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I love that I know how to capture a good photo after many years of being a photographer.
The buzz of having an idea in your mind and bringing that to life is such an incredible feeling.
When you see that image and know that you captured that moment, that memory, that feeling.
It can sometimes be over whelming.
To me a photograph specks a million words.
From sadness to joy.
Really there is nothing more powerful than capturing time, life, heart and soul with a click of a button.

That is why it is so sad that while I know I can capture that it’s hard just to take a snap shot.

Gone are the days were I and other photographers can just point and shoot, really capturing a moment.
I so wish it was that simple.

I really noticed this on a day out with friends, one being a photographer friend.
I stepped back as I often do and just watch the people I’m with.
Seeing their facial expressions, their pure soul as they get lost in a moment.
And I’m slowly teaching myself to reach for my phone and snap away.

Watching Al with his pro camera to watching Sam with her phone. The difference in how they capture that moment in time is incredible.
Al would spend 10 minutes plus getting the lighting, the shadows, the angle right and then the moment has gone, or the subject moves just before he taps the button.
Ok the photos he did get are amazing but the missed opportunities are lost forever.
While Sam’s photos are not professional, but they hold something rather inviting, they hold something so special that you can never replace.
Ok the lighting isn’t right always, feet may be missing, or a shadow may linger over a subject but time, love, adventure, life has been caught at a single click.

So which ones are the best photographs?

To me that’s an easy answer!
The snap shoot wins hands down. (Sorry Al)

Sadly when you are trained to get it right, the pleasure, the freedom, the joy is taken away.
The passion isn’t tho.
It takes great skill to be able to deliver that perfect photo. Shame though that part of the memory making progress disappears.

No matter what style, knowledge, passion, determination you have, never stop capturing those memories, as some point in your life, memories will be all you have left.

Make every snap shot count.

Eyes

imageRediscover the sensitivity of your childhood eyes.
The eyes that saw life as it is a beautiful compilation of tiny lives, each lived one at a time like snapshots in a family photo album. That saw beauty in flowers and rainbows and wild animals.
That marveled at fireflies and sunsets and starry nights.
That let you dream every instant with your eyes wide open.
See yourself sitting right where you are, breathing, and appreciating this chance to experience this moment.
If a child can see the beauty in it, why can’t we all.

I assure you

imageGood morning.
If you’re reading this, congratulations, you’re Alive.
And if you can’t find a reason to smile about that, you’ll have an awfully tough time finding a better reason to do so.
Time spent living is time worth appreciating. You are able to see the sunrise and the sunset. You are able to hear birds sing and waves crash onto the store.
You can walk outside and feel the breeze…the sun’s warmth on your skin…the rain drops trickling down you face.
When you make the most out of what you have, it turns out being a lot more than you ever imagined.

A beautiful day begins with a beautiful mindset.

When you wake up, take a second to think about what a privilege it is to simply be alive. Breathe onto the bathroom mirror, just to see how amazing your breath looks (brush your teeth first, morning breath is not so good😜). The moment you start acting like life is a blessing, it will start to feel like one.