Flashback Friday

It’s Friday!!!

and the start of an exciting weekend, where dreams really do come true.

Omg, I can’t believe tomorrow I will be living out a childhood dream and I’m so flipping excited,  I could scream.  😊

With that said I’m going to end this one short and leave you with this weeks trip down memory lane.

Funny enough, it just happens to be about dreams.

so without further ado I wish you an awesome weekend. Stay safe, happy and true.

Much luv

🌹🌹🌹

Every so often I am shown that giving up on a dream I lived for, doesn’t have to be a huge mistake.
Once again I have been shown I could have this dream but I now see that, what I have now in my life, my daughter, my amazing other half and love and support from my friends and growing family is much more rewarding and fills my heart with much more light and love than what I ever could have had if I had followed that dream.
Sometimes giving up on a dream may feel wrong and you may regret your choice, but you wouldn’t be where you are today or even who you are today with out that.
Today I am happy with my choices and thankful for the life I have lived because it has brought me to now, a time of new beginnings, hopes and dreams and a love that grows every second of everyday.
Right now my life is pretty perfect.

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A little heart goes a long, long way.

img_4237Sometimes I lose hope in humanity.
We all live in a world that isn’t the nicest, everyone just seems to be wrapped up in their own little world and have lost the most important thing, caring.
There is so much evil in the world, so many wars, so much hate and pain. I can’t stand to watch the news these day, it’s just so heart crushing.
Unless what others do, affects their own life’s, people just don’t seem to give a damn about what is going on in others, well unless it’s for the old gossip line but then it’s not really caring it’s just being damn right nosey.
Sadly the world seems to be quite content living in a heartless way.
It saddens me to the bone.
That was until I found this little community that blows me away, over and over again.
The love, support, the caring of these amazing women, is second to none and showed the world that love, support, and kindness is out there, you just need to look a little deeper to find it.
This group of incredible women from all over the world heard the devastating news that the young beautiful soul who has been fighting cancer for so many year, has been given weeks, only weeks to live.
Tears rolled down my face when I heard the news, this beautiful girl, who has fought so hard, so very, very hard is losing her battle. 😭
She has one dream that she wanted to complete before she gains her wings, and that was to spend a few days in Switzerland at an incredible hotel looking over the mountains.
This community who most haven’t met her, just had to make it happen and with help from a delightful women called Emma we got her there.
Women from every corner of the globe donated what they could and raised £12,000.00 to make her dream come true. That’s pretty damn amazing, don’t you agree?
Just over 48 hours later she was in the Switzerland with her mum, living out her dream.
It just makes me so humble and fills me with is feeling that I very rarely get. I’m feel very proud that just a little love and a few bank transfers later, we gave the most important and wonderful memories to these two women, who when it really comes down to it, we do not know from Adam.
We made dreams come true and to me the is so flipping special and a wonderful thing.
Maybe all hope isn’t lost and a little at a time, we can change the world for the better.

A little heart ❤️ goes a long, long way.

Flashback Friday with a twist

It’s a Friday that feels like a Saturday. It’s been a day of normal everyday tasks which I had done and dusted by 9 this morning, where that energy came from I really don’t know, but I wish I could be that on form everyday.
So today has been a beautiful spring day, I’ve felt a little warm for the first time in months, I’ve managed to spend time outside which really does not happen in my life at the moment, still I had to wear two jumpers, thermals, two long sleeve t-shirts and my coat, boy I’m sure that must have been a picture for any on lookers. Reynaud sucks. ⛄️
So anyway I found a burst of energy from God knows where and I laid a patio/shed base all on my own. Feeling kinda chuffed with myself if I’m honest. I’ve never done anything like that before but boy don’t I know it know. I need my bed, even though it’s the loneliest place on earth.
You may be thinking, “where are you going with this?”
Well as I was trying my hardest to put a base down for a woodshed, memories came flooding back to me and as it is flashback Friday and I don’t have any posts to share with you, (No posts have been blogged on the 25 March since I started this blog back in 2013) I thought I would share a memory from my childhood instead.

I’m sure we can all remember being given our pocket-money as a child.
I do, I remember how important I felt, having the responsibility of money, how grown up I felt when I was allowed to the corner shop to buy a pick a mix. How I made those 1 pence sweets last the whole week because I was trying so very hard to show responsibility.
Such powerful feelings for such a young child.

One of my strongest memories from my childhood, was saving up 50 pence a week, so I could buy my grandad a birthday present.
I loved my grandad, I really wanted to buy him something special, little did I know back then, what a rat he was, a complete waste of space and an evil man he really was.
Growing up really does suck, I wish I could have worn rose-tinted glasses as children do for the rest of my life. If only the world and the people in it, were really as we saw them as children.

Back to it…… My grandad was train crazy, he had a huge train set, set up in a massive shed at the bottom of his garden.
The hours I spent sat on his knee, watching the trains go round and round. Watching the lights in the buildings light up and helping to change the tracks so trains could get to stations or sidings. It was a mini advantage partly in my mind but also in front of my eyes.
The pure excitement I felt, when I knew I could see how the towns and village had changed since the last time I was there. Such joy from the simplest of things.
So I saved and saved to buy my grandad a new train or carriages for his track, and the day finally came when I counted up my penny’s and ran to the toy/model shop to buy, the most important present.

I still remember every feeling, every bit of excitement, every inch of pride I had for myself, for saving up to buy a pressie which would be just from me, that I had paid for with my own money.
The disappointment when I saw how much everything was in the shop, even the tiny little people and trees were more than I could save in a year. I was crushed, I wanted to do this more than anything and within seconds my dream faded away.
The feeling of determination that I would buy him something but what, you needed a bank loan to do this hobby, wow my grandad must be rich.😜
I spent forever looking around the shop, my hand in my Nan’s as tears filled my eyes. A lump in my throat and a pocket full of change. But not a single thing I could afford.
Until………..
I noticed modelling clay.
I remember the feeling of a smile returning to my face, the sunshine pouring through the window as I jumped up and down, pulling on my Nan’s arm from pure excitement.
Shouting “Grandad can make something for the trains” as I pulled the clay off the shelves.
In those few minutes the world was put to rights.
Such a simple, simple thing had brightened up my whole being, life was once again magical and pure.

I guess that is why flashback Friday’s are important to me, it’s not the day, or even what is written but the feelings, that go with every word that I wrote.
Memories are everything, they are life, love, passion, joy, longing, tears, they are us.

Dream

The best dreams happen when you’re wide awake and working hard on something you’re passionate about.
A dream is your creative vision for your life in the future, so dream big, pursue your passion, and give yourself permission to work toward a future you know you are capable of creating.

Foundation of growth

In life don’t try to be perfect, no one is. Just be an excellent example of being human.
Growth requires pain and happiness but try to remember that those with the strength to succeed in the long run are the ones who lay a firm foundation of growth with the bricks that life has thrown at them.
So don’t be afraid to fall apart for a little while.
You will always be learning even if you don’t realise it.
There is no stage of life that does not contain new lessons, as long as you breathing there will be something more to learn and as long as you follow your heart and never stop learning, you’ll turn not older, but newer every day.
Don’t forget to acknowledge the lesson, especially when things don’t go your way. If you make a mistake that sets you back a little, it only means you have to try that little bit harder, listen that little bit deeper, and over come the feeling of failure.
It’s not easy I know but it is in all of us, somewhere hidden deep within our souls.
If you believe in yourself just a little, then know you are capable.
Just do it, and be willing to fail and learn along the way.
At least you will know you gave it your best shot.
At the end of the day, whether you choose to go with it, flow with it, resist it, change it, or hide from it, life goes on. If what you did today didn’t turn out as you hoped, tomorrow is a new opportunity to do it differently, or to do nothing at all.
Never give up on yourself, and never abandon your values and dreams.
As long as you feel pain, you’re still alive.
As long as you make mistakes, you’re still human.
And as long as you keep trying, there’s still hope.

Saved/unsaved

In every challenge there are great doses of life to be lived. Whether you judge a challenge to be a problem or an opportunity says more about you than about the challenge itself.
The way you choose to see the world is the way your world will be. This is what gives life its magic.. it’s a continuous, dynamic phenomenon that becomes exactly what you choose to make it.
Life is ticking away every second.
The worst thing is spending your entire life drowning slowly and not being able to convince yourself that you are in full control, and that you can easily save yourself by simply standing up.
This is your life, made up entirely of your choices, your actions, your thoughts, your emotions. Someday you will either decide to save yourself or remain unsaved forever.

Letting our stories loose on the world

imageBlog – why???
We blog because we have something to say, whether it is personal, commercial, or otherwise. It could be kind of therapy, a job, a passion, inspiration, it can be anything you dream it to be.
With blogging, we let our stories loose on the world.
We put ourselves out there to be measured against others and we take responsibility for our point of view.
Sometimes we all get stuck for new, good ideas and worst of all, we think of the perfect blog while drifting off to sleep but it’s gone in the morning. (I must remember to have a note-book by the side of my bed)

Often I hear a piece of music, some lyrics that touch your soul, and my heart sets alight and creativity fills my soul and I imagine something breathtaking.
This feeling, moment in time is the beginning of my next adventure/blog post. The creation unfolding in front of my eyes.
The page becomes mine, my mind is whirling with magical ideas, not just in writing/blogging but in so many different ways, creating, work, life.
These feelings are the beauty of life.
We are writing our stories with every action, movement, feeling. We are making something wonderful . We are leaving memories in people’s hearts.
We are alive, we have passion, we are our own legacy.