Like a meteorite

imageLife doesnโ€™t stop for anybody.
It moves rapidly and rushes from calm to chaos in a matter of seconds, the shortest split second in time changes the direction of our lives forever. A seemingly innocuous decision rattles our whole world like a meteorite striking Earth. Entire lives have been swiveled and flipped upside down, for better or worse, on the strength of an unpredictable event.
And while we all resist change, and suffer more than we all thought was possible, somehow we have learned to adapt. We have learned to be flexible and look for the beauty in lifeโ€™s changes, even when they arenโ€™t what you want.
Stepping onto a brand new path is difficult, very difficult and it will change you, hurt you and even rip your heart out, sometimes you will have no control over it and NEVER get over it but you somehow have to carry on living even when you don’t want to.


Life changing decisions ๐Ÿ˜

imageA little while ago I made the decision to change my life totally, I need a fresh start away from memories made that now are painful, also I need to lay down roots for my daughter, as she is my life and I want only the best for her.
I decided that we are going to finally buy a house again., our own little home.
Well after, nearly a year of looking in Brighton, placing a good few offers some even over the asking price, I decided maybe it’s not meant to be.
I started looking at country homes, miles away from my home town. Marly-Kate loves being on my dads farm, she is a true country girl and will just sit watching the world go by, hunting for bugs, watching butterfly’s, dragonflies and bees dance in the breeze. She seeks out fairies that sparkle in the sunlight. She runs wild with the sheep, splashes in the bubbling broke and rides on the tractor.
She truly is a free spirit when in nature.๐Ÿ›๐Ÿž๐Ÿ

So anyway I found this run down unloved country home, it’s in a little close with fields surrounding, you can see deers jumping in the meadows, foxes playing and birds signing their morning verses. It’s truly a sight to see.๐Ÿ
It’s country living for sure, no street lights, no gas, no shop, clear roads and peace and beauty all around, with the comfort of not being totally alone. It’s the cutest hamlet/village and we can’t wait to begin our new life together.

Yesterday I received the news that it has passed all surveys and land checks and it should hopefully be ours at the start of April.

Here’s where the fun begins.
When I say the house is run down and unloved, that truly is an understatement.
It’s so dirty, that you wouldn’t want to touch anything and its a case of, wipe you feet on the way out.๐Ÿ‘ฃ
The garden, if you can call it that is just mud and weeds but to me it’s a blank canvas.
It’s where I can leave my mark, it’s a handy mans dream come true.
I really can’t say I’m all that good at diy but I have vision, to see what it could look like and I have the passion to get it there, I also have great friends and family that can make those visions come alive.
I have ideas flooding my head and my mind is racing, I feel I have a purpose again (sad but true)
I have something to throw my love at and hopefully be given years of comfort and happiness back from an unloved stack of bricks and mortar.๐Ÿ 
It’s just what I need to hopefully stop hurting and to take my mind off my illness that eats slowly away at me but more so I have a home for my baby girl, I have a gift of a future for her, she will have roots and a warm safe haven to return to.
To me that’s what makes this so exciting and special.
I’m giving her a better life, a home and my heart.โค๏ธ
She deserves the world and I will do what ever it takes to give her that.
It’s just me and her against the world and I’m determined to makes it a happy, safe, advantageous one for her for as long as I can.๐Ÿ’