To fly

img_3925A new day, a new week, a new improved attitude.

Challenge yourself to beat your own personal records. No one can do it for you, you have to choose to use your wings, to learn to fly.
Challenge yourself to be who you know you are capable of being. Challenge yourself to follow through, to live what you preach, to walk your talk.
Don’t worry about how slowly you feel you’re heading towards your goals, or how many roadblocks you find, or how many detours you’re forced to take. As long as you keep doing your thing, you’re still cruising far ahead of everyone who’s too scared to even try.

Your struggles are really your best growth opportunities. Please know in your heart that there is strength inside you that is greater than the troubles you face.
Stay strong.
Be positive.
We all struggle sometimes.
Life’s about breaking our own limits and outgrowing ourselves to live our best lives. The more obstacles you overcome, the stronger you become, as they say,
“The one who falls and gets up is so much stronger than the one who never fell.”
You will honestly never know how strong you truly are until being strong is the only choice you have.
Keep going.
Keep growing.
Keep dreaming.
Keep hoping.
Keep believing.


In with the new.

img_3906The new week arrived and I’m hoping it brings smiles, laughter and energy.
I’m looking forward with a positive attitude, this week will be a better one. With that, I’m reminding myself, that you cannot find peace by avoiding life.
Life spins with unexpected changes every hour, so instead of avoiding it, take every change and experience as a challenge for growth.
Either it will give you what you want or it will teach you what the next step is.
Finding peace and happiness in life does not mean that you have to be in a place where there is no noise, no challenges, and no hard work. It means to be in the midst of those things while remaining calm in your heart.
This isn’t easy, it will be an ongoing struggle.
But it’s infinitely easier than continuing the way you are. When your positive attitude is working, there will be peace, there will be beauty, and there will be happiness.
When life is falling apart, it could actually be falling together which is why it feels so darn uncomfortable. Consider that what’s in front of you may be serving you in valuable ways you don’t even understand right now.
Life is a wild ride and definitely not a smooth one.
You will find Happiness and you will lose it. You will find it again and lose it once more.
So remember that everyone suffers in life at some point. Everyone feels lost sometimes. But most of all try to remember………
“Life is too short to spend at war with yourself.”

Wake up call

When you get up in the morning, think of what a priceless privilege it is to be alive, to breathe, to think, to learn, to love and then make the day count!
The morning is extremely important, it’s the foundation from which the day is built. How you choose to spend your morning can be used to predict what kind of day you are going to have, what kind of life you are going to live. Each morning truly is a brand new opportunity. Each day is another chance to get it right.
It’s a brand new day to start over and do something different.
Yesterday may have been a complete bummer for you, but today is a new day for learning, success and adventure.
Realise this.
Live now and start taking action towards the life you want.
You have the power and the time to shape the rest of this day.
Break free from the poisonous victim mentality and embrace the truth of your greatness.

Pleased as punch

imageFeeling pleased as punch today and a little excited.

A few of my friends and I were sat round chatting at the weekend and one of them brings up my broken heart and his point of view on the way I have been shutting the world out since that day my world stopped spinning.
I heard a few things I didn’t really want to hear but it made me open up a little and say a few home truths about myself and the worst day of my life and I tried so hard to explain why I will never let myself love again. One being that I am still and always will be totally a million, trillion percent in love with Ross.
Any how’s, Rich turned to me, looking rather sad as his eyes filled with tears’ ( I think for the first time, he understood me and the pain I have felt since that day) and he said “But you have so much love to give, I would give the world to be loved by anyone, the way you love him.”
Every one that was sat with us, agreed in one way or another that Rich was right and they would give anything to feel love like I have for Ross.

Well over the last few days, I have been thinking about how cold I have become, how I reject any amount of compassion, family love, friendship, I just won’t let anyone get close to me.
I just can’t, I can’t stand the thought of letting anyone get close.
My walls have gotten so high that I’m at a stage where I don’t want to feel even friendship.

I know that has to change, and that I have to somehow carry on living.
So today I bit the bullet and put myself forward for a volunteer job working with children who through no fault of their own, don’t have a loving, caring, compassionate home life.
The job will be working with foster children, either helping them come to terms with their new placements or sat in on meetings with their parents in hopes to send them back to a happier more loving home.

Within five minutes of them receiving my email, I get an answer and I have the go ahead.
I’m over the moon, seriously chuffed to bits.
And I guess I will be giving a piece of my love to every single person, be it a child or a parent.

So a huge thank you to my friends who made me see that even though I am broken, I still have room in my heart to help and care for others.
I know nothing will ever compare to giving the man you love your heart, your soul and every inch of your being but this feels good and maybe just maybe I can help to make a difference in this heartless world.
Here’s hoping anyway. 😃

A little piece of me

imageSo for those of you that don’t know me, take a step into my world.
A little piece of me.

Life is pretty damn busy, with all the hospital appointments that takes up most of my week, to running a home, to play time, bath time etc, etc with my beautiful daughter, working from home and trying my hardest to keep on top of this blog, to trying out new crafts and learning new skills well trying anyway 😜
On top of this I was crazy enough to buy a house a few months ago that is a dump to say the least.
I have taken on the biggest project I have ever undertaken, I sometimes think”what the hell have I done”
It’s a money pit but I hope it will be worth it.

I have so many ideas running around in my head, way to many to make sense of.
I want each room to be perfect, but not perfect as most would see fit, I mean I want it to be perfect for my life, my style but I want it more than anything to be part of me.
To sum up my life, my dreams, my goals, my hurt, my happiness, my loneliness (yes at times I feel trapped and cut off from the world, my own doing I know, a move so far away from friends and family was the right thing to do, so that I can try to find myself again but it is also painful at times, I miss certain friends and family, I miss the smell of the sea in the morning breeze, I miss the hustle and bustle of city life, I miss so much about Brighton but I know now that it will never be my home again, and in true honestly it never really felt like home after I found the real meaning of home)
Back to where I was…… I want this house to represent everything that makes us human. It’s a tall task I know, one I know I will probably not achieve. But it doesn’t really matter in the end, it’s just bricks and mortar. I know because I already feel it, that this house isn’t a home, not to me. But hopefully it will be for Marly, somewhere where she feels safe, loved, warm, and settled.
That the most important thing.
So this huge challenge I have set myself is kinda at a stand still, with no energy to paint or the lack of making those final choices, it’s going slow, my office/craft room is nearly done and I’m liking it so far (I think)
I guess the hardest task is, how do I make it perfect when I have felt/had perfect and nothing ever will be/feel that way again.
I guess for now all I can do it try.

Blank canvas

imageToday is a blank canvas upon which you have the delightful opportunity to create.
At this moment you are standing at the beginning of an impressive adventure, with the very real and present opportunity to shape the upcoming years into the happy ones.
Challenges are simply opportunities..When you encounter resistance, it means you are moving forward. When you come across a challenge, it means you have reached an opportunity for growth.
Each new challenge is an opportunity to stretch beyond your previous limits. So revel in the beauty of each challenging effort. Give your best to life, and life will hopefully return the favor many times over.

Breath by breath

imageGood morning.
The morning is extremely important. It is the foundation from which the rest of the day is built. How you choose to spend your morning can often be used to accurately predict what kind of day you’re going to have.
In the space between the edge of the night and the chaos of the day, you have a chance to make a special space for yourself. In this space, thoughts and contentment neatly overlap, where past and future issues cease to exist, and time touches eternity.
Hovering about your mind, as you gently begin to stir, there are beautiful visions no one has ever seen and soothing harmonies no one has ever heard.
These first few moments of the day are sacred.
Savour them.
Protect them.
Awaken yourself peacefully, stretch fully and breathe deeply in them without rushing forward.
Give yourself this time as a gift, to simply be and feel alive, to conquer the anxiety of life, and live in the moment breath by breath.

Life is a continuous school

imageDon’t let fear of embarrassment stop you from trying something new. Sometimes we withhold ourselves from novelty because we’re afraid some people might call us silly or stupid. Shying away from trying something new stops your growth and your evolution. It stops you from acquiring new skills and knowledge.

Life is a continuous school.

Don’t miss out on opportunities to learn something enriching. If you think your new project might seem ridiculous to some people, turn those thoughts around in a funny or a disarming way, and go ahead and take the classes that interest you. And if people judge you for it, feel sorry for them, for simple minds are usually amused by simple things.

I have been trying a lot of new things over the last year and I have to say that even though I learn differently to others, and everything seems to take a little longer for me to master until I do it my way and then it just clicks.
Giving my mind something other than pain to think about has helped me more than I ever thought.
It’s has far from fixed me but has given me a little peace. To me that is a very good thing.

The only question is..

imageGood morning. Another day. Another Chance.
A dream within a dream..!
You cannot wait for the perfect time…it will never come. If you think this moment feels like the wrong time, think again. It’s just uncertainty messing with your mind.
Most of the time you must dare to jump.
Today is the first day of a new beginning…You can do as you please… Make the hours count.
You can turn your life around and be what ever you dream to be.

The only question is.. Who do you want that person to be?
Caring ? Loving ? Compassionate ? Loyal ? Hard working ? Tender ? Considerate ? Thoughtful ? Sympathetic ? Supportive ? Helpful ? Hospitable ? Charitable ?

Right now is the right time to decide.

Over and over…..

imageI have to keep reminding myself of this today.
Hoping it will work for me, if not hopefully it will for you.

When the pain of holding on is worse than the pain of letting go, it’s time to let go and grow.
In other words, start subtracting… the habits, routines and circumstances that are holding you back.
You cannot discover new oceans unless you build up enough courage to lose sight of the old, familiar shoreline.
Be brave.
Follow your values.
Make changes.
Dare to be different.
And don’t be afraid to like it.