That costs nothing

Happy Monday and what a lovely day it is looking. Enjoy your day everyone, and always remember to try to do something to change someones life for the better.
It doesn’t have to cost, give someone who needs it most a smile because that costs nothing ๐Ÿ™‚


Flashback Friday

imageAnother week over, another week older, another week wiser, another week stronger (well maybe)
Time is flying.
This week has been a good but different one.
Lots of creativity, loads of positive steps in getting healthy, lots of laughter but also tears.
But the most important part of this week was seeing Marly-Kate’s face glow with excitement as she opened her birthday pressie’s, which she got far to many. A huge thank you to everyone that made her little eyes light up and made her day the best it could be.
The worst about the week was last night when I asked her
“Did all your dreams come true today sweetheart?”
Her reply broke my heart ๐Ÿ’”

“No mummy, all I want for my birthday is for you to see daaaaa…….Ross. I want happy mummy”

Those words just shattered me into a trillion pieces. ๐Ÿ˜ข Even though those words cut through me like a knife, the beauty in those words are incredible. How very beautiful and special is my little girls soul, to want something not for herself but for me. That is so touching and incredibly humble and beautiful.

I guess it kinda makes this weeks flashback kinda perfect.
So I will leave you with “Heart to heart” and hope you have an awesome weekend, stay safe, positive and smile because you know what a true smile is truly bewitching.

imageHeart to heart

So the weekend is over and as I step back into my every day life that if I have to admit, it’s pretty good even if it is a struggle.
The weekend is over but is playing havoc with my mind.
One of my long time friends came to stay for the weekend and even though I had a blast in spending time with someone I do not give enough time to and picking up my camera, which I’m told I do not do enough.
Our imaginations ran wild and I felt a sense of pride in myself as photography came back to me so naturally.
It’s been a long time since I picked my camera up, I guess I just haven’t felt well enough to let my mind race with the possibilities that light can give us. My phone is my snap happy camera, as I just haven’t had the mind-set to do anything other than pull it out my pocket and take standard pictures, with no thought or love.
It felt good to see an image I had created with my mind, my heart and my soul.
It also felt good to laugh and smile until I was told to sit, and listen.
A good old heart to heart began.

I sat and listened to my friend tell me that I have lost not only my sparkle, but the life from my eyes.

I was told that no amount of my trying would ever replace, the glow I once had, that no smile will ever match, the one I wore and no amount of trying will ever mend the part of me that broke into a trillion pieces that day my life, my love, my heart and soul came crashing down around me.

The funny thing is I already know that, but hearing it from one of my life long friends, kind of brought it home.

I’ve forgotten how to truly be happy, to truly smile, to be the person who had her dream in her hands and the love of her life in her life.
That love, that undying love that made me glow, that made my heart take flight, that love that made me breathe in air for the first time, that love that completed me.

I have finally had to face that life no matter how hard I try to be happy, normal, care free, will always be filled with an emptiness so deep within my soul, that my eyes will never shine and twinkle the way I wish they would, the way they did when I was with him.

It’s hard to hear from friends that even though I smile, laugh, joke and live, that my eyes hold no secrets and bear all to see, that my light will never burn as brightly and beautifully as they once did.
I’ve always said the eyes are the window to the soul, I just didn’t see that my soul is so easy to read.

Three little things

Holiday depression and winter season anxiety and emotional crisis concept as a human eyeball crying a tear with a christmas tree inside as a metaphor for seasonal sadness.

Holiday depression and winter season anxiety and emotional crisis concept as a human eyeball crying a tear with a christmas tree inside as a metaphor for seasonal sadness.

Mental health can affect us all in some way whether it is us or loved one struggling. Life’s twists and turns can make us feel down and start us off with depression.
We then might get anxious in various situations and struggle to make sense of everything, and sometimes without really knowing why.
Other life events can make us feel worthless and unwanted/unloved and make us think things that maybe we wouldn’t usually.

I guess in a way that’s why I blog, so people can see they are not alone.

With Christmas coming up it is a time of year I think affects a lot of people, so if you have any family members/friends who you see struggling, try to find time to have a listening ear, a smile and a comforting hug. Those three little things go a long way.

Stay strong everyone in your daily battles and keep fighting through, on your own it may feel a challenge but the challenge lessens with us all fighting through together and making each others lives that much more positive and brighter.

There is always something…..

imageEven in the most peaceful surroundings, the ungrateful heart finds trouble.
Even in the most troublesome surroundings, the grateful heart finds peace.
Remember this. There is always, always something to be grateful for. And being positive in a negative situation is not naive..itโ€™s a sign of strength.

Youโ€™re doing it right when you have so much to cry and complain about, but you prefer to smile and appreciate your life instead.
If youโ€™re struggling with this, start by being grateful for all the problems you do not have.
Let go of the need to complain about life, and spend more moments actually living it’s beauty.

Change the phrase

โ€œI have toโ€ to โ€œI get to.โ€

So many things we complain about are things others wish they had the chance to do.