A beautiful chapture 😃 How my life has changed.

imageLife really is a roller coasters at the moment, after one of the most fantastic weeks of my life last week, to a family wedding, to final stages of packing up my life to move miles away from everyone, to the devastating news from consultants, life has thrown a hell of a lot of emotions, hard decisions, extreme highs and lows at me.

I felt that I have turned a corner, I have been loving life, I’ve smiled and laughed and found that happiness can really exist even with a ticking time bomb over my head and a shattered beyond shattered heart.

Life is no way the same and I’m sure as sure that I am not the same person I was even a few weeks ago.
Something just changed over night and I wanted to feel happiness again.

How I felt that happiness doesn’t really matter, it doesn’t matter that I went against my constants orders so I could finally feel some other emotion apart from emotional pain.
I know I will have to live with the fall out of that as my condition gets worse by the day but boy it was worth it, ever second of every day/night was so worth it.
The feeling of freedom, hope, joy, laughter, smiles, excitement was worth a life time of physical pain.
Not much can match those few days of total joy.
Life was truly a gift, a gift so bright that the world was perfect, so perfect for those few days.
Even though there were moments when my heart wanted to take it away from me and show me that it couldn’t be perfect because it was missing one certain person.
I wasn’t going to let him take this dream, advantage away from me.
I wanted to feel all those different emotions flow through me, ones that I haven’t felt for so long.
Even though my heart wept for the what if, I couldn’t and wouldn’t allow it to win this time.
Life was pretty damn fantastic.
Mind blowing is an understatement.
I felt free totally free and that feeling alone was worth it.

Tune in soon to hear about my advantages.
Trust me you will be rushing to buy a ticket.

Stay safe and happy and smile your biggest smile because life is a gift, and it can be bloody fantastic at times.

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It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, and I’m feeling……

imageGood morning,wakey wakey, sleepy heads, it’s time to start another exciting day.
So are you up yet?
Of course you are, or you wouldn’t be reading this.
See the day is starting out great already, you’re alive.
It’s the 24th of February and once again we have noticed how fast time can pass and leave us behind living our lives and waiting always for something new to happen.
But what are you doing to start that happening ? Just like a car, your body and mind needs to be maintained, to insure that it runs at top performance every day, all day.
So let’s get up and warm the systems up, get some good quality fuel in you, and get ready to head out on today’s journey. It’s going to be an awesome day. With your body all fired up ready to go, take some time to free your mind of your troubles, in order to gain conscious control of what goes on in your mind, you need to develop a keen awareness for this. What helps is to hold still for a moment, take a deep breath and free your mind of all the chatter that’s going on inside and all around.
This makes room for a change of state, for something new to enter.
So give yourself a break.
Don’t say you can’t. Yes, you have battles out in the world to fight, insecurities to overcome, loved ones to contend with and goals to achieve, but a break from it all is necessary.
It’s perfectly healthy to pause and let the world spin without you for a while. If you don’t, you will burn yourself out. You must free you mind on a regular basis. That means catching your breath, finding quiet solitude, focusing your attention inward, and otherwise making time for recovery from the chaos of your routine.
Freedom has amazing powers, you just need to see and feel the clearer picture and take the world by storm.
You are the key to a happy lifestyle. If you don’t take care of your life and yourself, no one else will.
Don’t forget to smile. It keeps people guessing and smiling, your smile is beautiful, pass it on. 😄
Have a great day everyone.
Be safe, have fun, and be happy.